Grandmom

If I could turn back the hands of time
My grandma would still be here with me.
I would visit her on a daily basis and tell her that I loved her more often.
She would know she didn’t sacrifice her youth in vain
Me and my siblings damn near drove her crazy still she never complained.
Swallowed her tears never expressed any pain.
She bared those chest pains I wonder if she cried in the dark
Never seen tears stream down her pretty face she had so much heart
When the news reached she had cancer she didn’t cry she smiled
Had me fooled I thought everything was gonna be okay
To in denial of the fact that she could die any day.
My grandma went thru chemo therapy and rocked a baldy with style
My young mind remained lost in the picture as I walked in on my granny reading scripture
She said child cancer isn’t a joke and this insulin is expensive on top of that were broke.
So you mean to tell me we have to choose between the lights being on and the cost of medicine
You see the cost of living is high n if granny don’t take her prescription granny is likely to die.
Stress on top of cancer not a good combination
After a year on chemo therapy I watched powerless as the cancer subdued my grandma’s body
Turning her full figured frame into an almost unrecognizable size
Only way I knew it was her was by the dignity in her eyes
Still soft and kind remnants of her smile shown through undisguised
The light of her voice still strong to my surprise
She told me what she wanted to be buried in
And how no matter what she wanted me and my sisters to stay together.
At a lost of words I blurted grandma your gonna get better
I know its raining now but you’ve made it through worst weather
You lost your husband to gane green, you lost a daughter to the streets so this struggle with cancer should be easy to defeat don’t give up and retreat I couldn’t find the words to speak so I mumbled I LOVE YOU
Just the thought of my beloved departing made me ask God why
She don’t deserve to die like this she never got to enjoy her golden years
Then I realized the only thing that she held to be golden
Was her grandchildren and we meant the world to her so in reality
She treasured us more then she valued living an easy life
So it hurts to say but she died doing what she loved
And that was caring for us
So I pray that her reward lies in His Hands who is above
D.Evans Copyright 2010


I loved my grandma I know she knows that in spite of how ungrateful I appeared to be
If it wasn’t for Mary I wouldn’t be me. I couldn’t have had a better keeper I’m so thankful for her. Without her in my life she was my direction surely I would have been lost. She taught me so many things and she was the most loving kind person I have ever met!