An old peom I wrote enjoy =)

I ASK ALLAH TO REMOVE AWAY FROM MY GRASP ALL THE EVIL THINGS, THE MISGUIDING CONIVING THINGS.
THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME ASTRAY FROM HIS PATH,
THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME DESERVING OF HIS WRATH.
O ALLAH HELP MY HEART STAY FIRM ON YOUR DEEN
REMOVE FROM MY SIGHT THE HARMFUL UNSEEN.
I PUT MY TRUST IN YOU, O ALLAH I AM WEAK
MAKE NEAR TO MY SOUL THE WORDS I NEED TO HEAR,
AND THE WORDS I NEED TO SPEAK.
ALLOW MY MIND TO BE AT PEACE, MAKE CLEAR THE EVIL OF THIS DUNYA
KEEP ME ON THE RELIGION OF THE SAHABAH MY PROPHET, HIS SUNNAH.
YOU HEAR ME AT NIGHT WHEN I CRY OPENLY IN PAIN FROM THIS FRUSTRATING LIFE
I DESIRE, I MOURN FOR SOMETHING BETTER,
NOTHING THIS DUNYA CAN OFFER.
I FEEL SO EMPTY, MAKE MY HEART A LITTLE SOFTER
JANNAH, PARADISE, FIRDOUS IT HAS MANY NAMES.
AM I DESERVING OF YOUR REWARD, OR YOUR PUNISHMENT?
HAS MY SOUL TURNED BLACK, O ALLAH HAVE MERCY ON ME.
WHEN I AM ASLEEP AT NIGHT I DREAM OF ITS FRANGRANCE
YET WHEN I OPEN MY EYES AND REALIZE HOW CLOSE I AM TO MY DEMISE ALL I CAN IMAGINE IS THE FIRE.
HAVE I CAUSED MYSELF TO BE OF THOSE WHO ARE DOOMED?
EVERY BREATH I TAKE THE SOUND OF MY BEEPING HEART,
AS THE BLOOD IS PUMPING THROUGH MY VEINS
THE ANGEL OF DEATH IS ALWAYS NEAR.
O HOW I GROAN IN FEAR!
HAVE I DONE ENOUGH GOOD DEEDS TO WIPE AWAY MY SINS,
MY TO MANY TO COUNT SINS, ASTAGHFIRULLAH.
HAVE I BUSIED MYSELF WITH WORSHIP, NO MY BODY HAS NO PAIN
MY BACK HASN’T BENT ENOUGH MY TOUNGE HASN’T SAID ENOUGH
O ALLAH HELP ME SHOW MY GRATITUDE
GUARD MY ANGER; LOCK AWAY THIS NO GOOD ATTITUDE.
WITHOUT YOUR GUIDANCE WHERE WOULD I BE?
I THANK YOU FOR THIS LIGHT YOU LEFT ON EARTH FOR ME
YOU HAVE ALLOWED ME TO SEE IT, NOW LET IT SHINE BRIGHT
I AM CONTENT WITH YOU AS MY LORD AND I DO NOT DESPAIR OF OUR MERCY AND I KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE JUST ONE, OFT FORGIVING AND MOST MERCIFUL.

~YOUR SERVANT AISHA, UMM MARYAM