Misunderstanding

He promised to hurt himself
Before he could ever hurt me.
No one ever told him, that loving himself,
Is the only way to love me.

Every morning you put on a disguise
waiting for the world to realize
who you think you are....

I miss him..

I miss a man I never knew
I miss a man who doesn't care about what he is missing
No matter how much I try to mask this feeling..
The thought that he hasn't been here,
And doesn't care to be
Takes over.
Sometimes I wonder if he ever thinks of me.
I spend sleepless nights thinking of him
Trying to keep hold of fragile,
Fragments of memories he left with me

Trickery

I fell in love with him
no one could stop me
I fell in love with him
no one could stop me
And now that I'm in love,
they try to stop me
But I'm in love with him
No one can stop me.....

Hey Sis!

Please don't bother me
I'd rather be alone
I'm from another world, I'm tryna hitch a ride home.
Don't try to get to know me I'd rather be unknown
Where I'm from I'm a QUEEN I sit alone on my thrown.
Your in my way I'm tryna get in my zone
Your so close in my lane I think I smell your cologne
Where is your manners? I said leave me alone
What you need a friend? I have a few I can loan.
Now get gone it's time for you to roam
What you don't understand what I'm saying?
Betta buy rosetta stone!
Your being childish I thought we were both grown
No you can't have my number unless you steal my phone

G.A.M.E

Who will I be deceiving this evening
Who will I disclose lies to
As we lie close to.
Hoping to grasp a part of my heart.
Hold on have a good grip because mines is torn apart.
My name is game
I run on broken promises and dreams
Deceptive plots and schemes
Barricading my victims in confusion
Losing to the delusions
Broken trust ruining relationships
Never to get whipped
Leaving before I am hurt
Relationships never worked I stay in search of a prey to flirt
When I sit and lurk just pray you don't get hurt.
Like a hit man on a rampage going berserk
I don't aim I just squeeze
So it's likely I'll hit innocent bystanders
Misunderstood so my name is often slandered
Never apologizing I'm here to settle scores
See once I gave my all and my feelings got ignored
So since then I've declared war
And it's not over until the white flag is raised and we surrender
Then I’ll give my heart to the number one contender

Love is Insanity

Love and insanity seem to have the same effect on a soul
Souls sold to the highest bidder to gain control of its whole
In shackles chained down by the fascination of being loved
Busting out busting loose, like the rhythm method of birth control.
Inventory taken used to be in control of my hearts population
Now I see it holds so many frequent occupations
Stop accusing them blame yourself take accusation
If only I had remained patient, I wouldn't be a patient.
Now I Seek segregation from my heart, body and mind
Love has left me blind.
My soul circles around my heart playing border control
Paying a percentage of foolishness losing integrity no dignified way to dig me
What order is being served recipe whip it up run that game don't give up.
I guess you get what you deserve I thought being young and in denial was a past minor role
Got to find a peace of mind
So much in just a short period of time
I can't go back my heart has been stolen
My mind rearranged and I have no clue rather I am in love or going insane

Revive

He asked me to write him a poem.
It's funny that he doesn't know all my poems are about him.
He inspires my desire to acquire a higher understanding of life.
Prior before things transpired, I only dealt with liars who seeked to lead me to the fire.
Like a hired hit man, tapped wired they used her words against her.
They were disguised like spies she never knew what they conspired
They were all out to get her, they were all out to dry her,
Of the hayya of the modesty she begin to attire
Scrutiny they tried to ruin me, so I changed my temperature from hot to cold.
Ice cold heart almost frozed. Changed my colors became the monster they all mold.
This vision they all hold in their minds in their heads all women were hoes.
Cry that she did as they opened fire on her heart
Breaking her heart she almost, nearly fell apart
Gruesome was the start there was barbed wires of lies
No justice ignites thru the night hate was sparked.
Alone in the dark shocked to still be alive
Her feelings were paralyzed after how hard they tried.
She almost damn near died.
But it was her faith that kept her alive.
Fate it was that He heard her cries and would send her a savior to where the enemies lied.
They were sure of her ending but her life was really just beginning.
See little did they know that concrete can't hold a rose
Like a phenomenal women still she rose and she remained bold
Knowing her story would be told secrets undone promises unfold.
And she knew he would come but not like a knight in shining armor
Or prince charming, how she would see it in her dreams
Just a brother in a white thobe with a beard and a turban
Armed with the Sunnah, Quran in his clutch his ransom wasn't much but her heart he would touch.
In he came with the cardiac defibrillator, just in time he saved her
As she suffered many massive heart attacks
Each new one got harder then the next
It got harder to relax
Like lightening she felt electrifying
A live wire a loose cannon
She lacked patience was so demanding.
Then he came in commanding the good and forbidding the evil
Hickmah he used like medicine thru the needles
Expanding as her lungs soaked in what seemed like a breath of fresh air
Her Lord always cared and wouldn't leave her in despair nor stranded
Instead he sent her a man and guided them to a mutual understanding.

Lost in Translation

We are in two different worlds but when we speak we connect
I thought it was impossible to care for someone you've never met.
You make me feel perfect as if I lack defects
And if I’m wrong for feeling these ways don’t hesitate to correct.
I may have missed the signal, you can end this fascination like an early dismissal.
But if I’m not incorrect on what I detect then carefully select
A daily shot of love into my veins and inject.
You have that special effect
I thought they were out of business and stop making men like that.
I want you to be my solider, you know my other half
Upgrade you I’ll give you half of my stash.
But you know what they say wisdom is better than cash
You can compile a million dollars and won’t get half of my worth.
Or you can search the treasures of my heart and collect.
All of my love non stop until you leave me in debt
Bankrupt I won’t be upset, just take out another loan, or place another bet.
Lend you my mind in the form of a check just think and reflect
While I recollect all of my thoughts before my feelings get wrecked.
I can't stand that, and do to that respect for the rest of this letter I'm speaking indirect.
Your sincere I expect you caused this effect
If I’m not on point right now you should stop ,intersect.
Enter that, when you reply back
It’s just my heart and my feelings I want you to protect
Stand on guard fake dealings I have to reject
I'm not desperate don’t think for a second your not replaceable
I can dry board erase you, neglect your needs hospitalize and re-evaluate you
Lost in translation if we talking long distance in this instant we can disconnect
It’s nothing major we can change the subject.
Just do me a favor and don't pretend to be my savior.
Once loneliness and misery were strangers, but they love company
Done visited them to much now they frequently accompany me
A damsel in distress, done did a whole year in this love less penitentiary
But if you aint the one I'll wait another century
If it’s meant to be I’ll just go down in history
As the shero whose envision of a hero was just a mystery.

Love leaves

All I can do is be myself
love me or leave me I love myself
If you leave me and go love someone else
I wont stress I dont mind being by myself......

Suicidal Thoughts

Suicidal thoughts, memories blurry and dark
Never fall apart, no ending no start
Suicidal thoughts while at home in the dark
Starting to fall apart no ending no start
Suicidal thoughts starting to fall apart
Heart is cold mind shattered in parts
Suicidal thoughts no ending no start
Life is worthless starting to fall apart
Suicidal thoughts when they thought I had a heart
Memories get blurry starting to fall apart
Worthless suicidal thoughts
Driven by fear, of anticipation the end is near
Why do I care, careless selfish that's what they say?
The blade gets closer pushing my fears away
Tears streaming down my face as my mind begin to race
Thinking of a clearer, brighter sunny day
I wish I knew a better way to end this despair
But the truth of reality will never be clear
The actuality certain no ending
Because there was no beginning.

Poetry Release

So they wanted me to write a poem
So that’s just what I did
It helped to give them some insight
Of what goes on in my head
It helps me to express myself, and all my concerns
It teaches them my lifestyle and what I care to learn
So now that I’ve got your attention
Let me care to mention, why I feel like such a stranger,
From another dimension.
You see poetry is my escape from this ugly reality
Where people are hated over religion and nationality
Stepped on and runned down, no apologies
Everyday life is treated like a game of monopoly
Youngster’s gang banging on the streets
Where hustlers drive around blasting beats
Packed with heat you will get blast on these streets
Prostitutes out of date the pretty girls be acting fake
They all sleep, closed eyes not awake
How you debate about peace when you’re fueled off of hate?
It starts in the households now it's in the school
Kids breaking all the rules, authorities trick the fools
Hood legends got violence looking cool
In a way I can't blame em people push buttons it's hard to tame em
Yet alone train em and if they heart ice cold you can't change em
Lock em up and chain em the justice system just hanged him
So everybody walking around like a time bomb waiting to explode
Paranoid and bold
The future we mold
The past we can't hold
Be wise I was told
Just wait and behold
Release my fury on the paper
The whole world might hate her
Trick and date rape her
Shackles tried to break her
Chains to overtake her
To the jail she's been chauffeured
In solitary hasn't seen the day of light
In months but she still writes
Won’t go down without a fight
So congratulate her
Just be there when she's released
When she puts her mind at ease
Where she escapes to retreat
Where the ink plants a seed
At her poetry release.

Where the Sidewalk Ends

Where the Sidewalk Ends

There is a place where the sidewalk ends
And before the street begins,
And there the grass grows soft and white,
And there the sun burns crimson bright,
And there the moon-bird rests from his flight
To cool in the peppermint wind.

Let us leave this place where the smoke blows black
And the dark street winds and bends.
Past the pits where the asphalt flowers grow
We shall walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And watch where the chalk-white arrows go
To the place where the sidewalk ends.

Yes we'll walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And we'll go where the chalk-white arrows go,
For the children, they mark, and the children, they know
The place where the sidewalk ends.

Shel Silverstein

Poetry by 2pac Shakur

In the event of my Demise by Tupac

In the event of my Demise
when my heart can beat no more
I Hope I Die For A Principle
or A Belief that I had Lived 4
I will die Before My Time
Because I feel the shadow's Depth
so much I wanted 2 accomplish
before I reached my Death
I have come 2 grips with the possibility
and wiped the last tear from My eyes
I Loved All who were Positive
In the event of my Demise

I Cry by Tupac

Sometimes when I'm alone
I Cry,
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I Cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confiding,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
but who do you know that stops that long,
to help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
so painful and sad.
And sometimes...
I Cry
and no one cares about why.

The Rose That Grew From Concrete by Tupac

Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete?
Proving nature's law is wrong it learned to walk with out having feet.
Funny it seems, but by keeping it's dreams, it learned to breathe fresh air.
Long live the rose that grew from concrete when no one else ever cared.

And Tomorrow by Tupac

Today is filled with anger, fueled with hidden hate.
Scared of being outkast, afraid of common fate.
Today is build on tragedies which no one want's to face.
Nightmares to humanity and morally disgraced.
Tonight is filled with Rage, violence in the air.
Children bred with ruthlessness cause no one at home cares.
Tonight I lay my head down but the pressure never stops,
knowing that my sanity content when I'm droped.
But tomorrow I see change, a chance to build a new,
build on spirit intent of heart and ideas based on truth.
Tomorrow I wake with second wind and strong because of pride.
I know I fought with all my heart to keep the dream alive.

Fallen Star by Tupac

They could never understand
what u set out 2 do
instead they chose 2
ridicule u
when u got weak
they loved the sight
of your dimming
and flickering starlight
How could they understand what was so intricate
2 be loved by so many, so intimate
they wanted 2 c your lifeless corpse
this way u could not alter the course
of ignorance that they have set
2 make my people forget
what they have done for much 2 long
2 just forget and carry on
I had loved u forever because of who u r
and now I mourn our fallen star

A young heart with an old soul by Tupac

How can there be peace?
How can I be in the depths of solitude
When there are two inside of me?
This duo in me causes the perfect opportunity
To learn and live twice as fast
As those who accept simplicity...

Ambition over Adversity by Tupac

Take ones adversity
Learn from their misfortune
Learn from their pain
Believe in something
Believe in yourself
Turn adversity into ambition
Now blossom into wealth

In The Depths of Solitude by Tupac

A young heart with an old soul
How can there be peace?
How can I be in the depths of solitude
When there are two inside of me?
This duo in me causes the perfect opportunity
To learn and live twice as fast
As those who accept simplicity...

Can You See the Pride In the Panther by Tupac

Can You See the Pride In the Panther
As he grows in splendor and grace
Topling obstacles placed in the way,
of the progression of his race.
Can You See the Pride In the Panther
as she nurtures her young all alone
The seed must grow regardless
of the fact that it is planted in stone.
Can You See the Pride In the Panthers
as they unify as one.
The flower blooms with brilliance,
and outshines the rays of the sun.

A Poem about Tupac by J. Hilton

Only God Can Judge 2pac...

Black man, Black boy, Prince, Thug,
Revolutionary, Symbol. They only see your
tattoos, jewelry, and body language. They only
hear your vulgar words, defiant messages, and
your unavoidable controversy. They see your life
as a threat, they comment chickens came home
to roost They blame you for violence in
America, they pour disgust on you and point the
finger at you for problems in our families.
Black man, Black boy, Prince, Thug,
Revolutionary, Symbol. We see you as the dark
truth they are scared to accept. We see you as the
voice we sometimes could not find. We see you
as a young Malcolm X. Alcohol, drugs, women
and prison consumed you, as it did Brother
Malcolm. Yet those that knew you, knew you
were on the way out, you had seen the light and
moved toward it. We felt your pain, so similar to
ours. We felt your frustration, so similar to ours.
We felt your anger, so similar to ours. You are an
unavoidable realness. To Generation X, as they
describe it, you are a 1996 Elvis, John Lennon,
Jimi Hendricks, Sammy Davis, Ella Fitzgerald.
Those that don't know, may never know. Those
that do know, truly know that... Only God Can
Judge You!

Dead silence

I hate wars
but there is no room for peace
untill we get justice for all even those in the middle east
call a doctor call a preist
maybe at least the prisoners can get released.
I say a prayer for the children who have lost their child hood
all because their parents actions were misunderstood
help them we should but instead we watch in silence
dead silence....
if you listen closely you can hear them screaming
its reality your not dreaming
the government is scheming
and innocent children pay the price
I can give you some advice
you should really think twice
are you safe that this could never happen to you?
we treat others how we wanna be treated
well lately I guess we dont love ourselves
the minute you stop caring about whose wrong and whose right
its over you’ve already lost the fight
you have become a media slave
you've been brainwashed I can tell by how you behave
yea we've seen better days
now were in a daze
trapped in this maze
still im not amazed
amused and outraged
your mind has been caged
release it and rampage
look the proof is on the page
this whole war was staged
what era are we living in
I thought we were better then our ancestors
still we watch in dead silence
hoping ,wishing, praying
but still our feet, lips, arms, and tongues dont move

Rawr....

ova thought
ova looked
now your hooked
reading my book
ova stood
unda pressure
who knew i held the key with this pen to all the lost treasures
unda minded
unda measured
who knew i would bond with so many and cause hearts much pleasure
held it down
let it loose
now im on top i got the juice
almost lost my mind
my soul and heart
On the verge to depart
But I pulled thru
look at me
look at you
i hate on whats wrong yall hate on the truth
back to where i started
to where my lips first parted
to the first blank page i ever wrote on
to the first person who inspired me
i've never desired to be
no more then what u see
still yall hate and envy
and try to end me
still standing
still demanding
keep comprehending
keep under-standing
tryna figure me out
and see what im about
got me ready to shout
sick of the hook ups and look outs
i do this for fun
In fact im just doing me
i keep it real
Wat you get is what you see
so whats wrong why u mad?
exactly my point you aint even gotta answer
you sick like cancer
im the cure the enhancer
so stop all the noise
relax and take a seat
or you can beat your feet
whichever you prefer
cuz i aint going nowhere my mind differs
welcome to my world here is the key to enter
Get lost inside on your way to the center
I can be your mentor
My soul you can rent her
Just promise to return her in one piece
Then ill be at peace
I hope it helps you understand me so this beef we can cease
Kill it leave it deceased
In love we shall increase
Now I aint no preist
And never claimed to be one
that would be dumb
Im just tryna have fun
You aint gotta follow what I believe
I promise not to greive
Its whatever HE decrees
Im just asking you to please
See where im coming from
Why I don’t crumble
In the jungle
You can rumble
You will stumble
I wont budge
I wont hold a grudge
My spirit you cant nudge
Give you kisses and hugs
While I wait to be judged

Brothers and Niggas (remake of jay z sister and bi**ches)

Lets describe a certain man
Lets describe a certain man
Lets describe a certain man

(nigga) You in my face steady tryna lay a bone
(nigga) You grab my bag nd put ur number in my phone
(nigga) Like macaulay culkin im going home alone
(nigga) You think you slick imma ring the alarm
(nigga) Why you think im acting all uptight
You walk me to my car but that's it for tonight
(nigga) you all up in my face im tryna put up a fight
You need to back up before I get you served right.
I aint no one night stand how many times do I have to remind stan?
You gonna get played and rewind so I can do it all again
Stop playing pretend Im with you for the bread
You paying my bills Im playing with your head
(nigga) I got brothers who schooled me to what yall do
Stop playing dumb like you aint tryna screw to
I dont get down with the crew
Im just tryna get thru give me the money imma jew
See im just tryna do me
Send you home to wifey see if she really likes me
See I kinda understand why these girl go dykey (It's yall)
(niggas) (niggas) (niggas)
Don't make me repeat myself
Messing with yall (niggas) is bad for my health
You aint a balling cuz you got a lil wealth
(nigga) You aint no better then a broke man
Once I get you open give me all that you holding
listen (nigga) you wasting time my legs stay folded
It's golden the number one rule
Don't fall in love with no (nigga) ya ego will get bruised
Ladies follow the rules get your own money and stay in school
Cuz im telling you now you can't depend on no nigga
Stop thinking you can change him like Beyonce did Jigga (he a)
(nigga) (nigga) (nigga)

Lets describe a certain male
Lets describe a certain male
lets describe a certain male

They say day all men aint niggas
(brothers) show you respect, niggas don't even expect to
brothers work hard, niggas hardly work
they rather hang on t corner in flirt
go to a club and do the jerk (he a jerk)
brothers will support you, niggas will abort try hard to destort you (belive it)
brothers help you with your kids and house work
niggas dont even know how a broom and mop work
niggas will put your buisness on the streets
brothers keep your business in the sheets
brothers drive cars, niggas work nerves
brothers can take you far, niggas will kick you to the curb
brothers get their hands dirty outside of where they live
niggas bring the work put it under the sick in your crib
cook it up in the pots your kids be eating in
reckless I tell you take heed with them
brothers walk by your side, niggas think they above you
brothers love the ladies cuz they respect they mommas
niggas will bring to your front door all the baby momma drama
brothers love when I keep it real
niggas get mad when I lack sex appeal!
with all that said here's whats the deal
I love my brothers niggas get real!



JAY-Z LYRICS

"Bitches & Sisters"

(Let's describe a certain female)
(Let's describe a certain female)
(Let's describe a certain female)

[Jay-Z]
(Bitch) you know my name and the company I own
(Bitch) you like my style and you smell my cologne
(Bitch) don't try to act like my track-record ain't known
(Bitch) you probably gotta couple CD's in your home
(Bitch) don't make me say it twice, you acting all up tight
Also diddy like, like, like
You ain't a (Bitch), I ain't no ball player, you ain't gonna get pregnant again
Hit off with paper, you gonna get hit off and slid off
Before the neighbors take off to go to work
So just, take off your shirt, don't hit me with that church shit
(Bitch) I got a sister who schooled me to shit you chickens do
Tricking fools, got a whole Robin Givens crew that I kick it to
They be hipping dudes, how you chickens move, I be listening to
(Bitch) (Bitch) (Bitch)
Don't make me say it thrice, you acting all up tight
Also diddy like, like
You ain't a (Bitch), You ain't no better cuz you don't be fucking rappers
You only fuck with actors, you still getting fucked backwards
(Bitch) Unless you fucked a dude on his own merit
And not the way he dribbles or ball or draw leverage
You're a (Bitch), No ma, you're a (Bitch)

(Let's describe a certain female)
(Let's describe a certain female)
(Let's describe a certain female)
Say Jay-Z, why you gotta go and disrespect the women for? Uh

[Jay-Z]
(Bitch) Sisters get respect, bitches get what they deserve
SIsters work hard, bitches work your nerves
Sisters hold you down, bitches hold you up
Sisters help you progress, bitches will slow you up
Sisters cook up a meal, play their role with the kids
Bitches in street with their nose in your biz
Sisters tell the truth, bitches tell lies
Sisters drive cars, bitches wanna ride
Sisters give-up the ass, bitches give-up the ass
Sisters do it slow, bitches do it fast
Sisters do their dirt outside of where they live
Bitches have niggers all up in your crib
Sisters tell you quick "you better check your homie"
Bitches don't give a fuck, they wanna check for your homie
Sisters love Jay cuz they know how 'Hov is
I love my sisters, I don't love no bitch

The game plays games

Two things always mattered
I was neither one.
I had so much faith in us I shoulda had none.
Never thought u would play me now I see our time is done.
I was crying my heart out you was tryna come up some.
This game had u on lock
Diamonds u wore distracted me a lot
Henny iced up on rocks
You were balling non stop
I was waiting around the clock
U were dodging me a lot
Still tried to make it work
Through the pain it always hurt
Lessons learned new preachers
Different agendas new teachers
No one’s stopping I had 2 lead us
U left us alone u never needed us
Now u can’t get in touch no way to reach us
We done moved on cant hear through dem speakers
A thousand miles u can run in ur Gucci sneakers
To get back in my heart ur gonna have to creep up
Im ice cold heart done departed
I cant blame u the game is retarted
U liked all those fancy names
I thought u had a brain now I see ur rather lame
So while ur switching lanes
I’ll be in the cut
Im good go after dem girls with the big butts
I loved u once to love u again would be pure luck
I was young In a jam all stuck
That was then when I was a yung buck
Try me now it wouldn’t last
So happy I can get pass my past!


**just me reflecting**

But...Think Again (a poem)

What am I suppose to do without you
What can I say to make you stay?
If you want to leave me that’s fine you’ll probably only waste my time
I know this has to end but where do we begin
Stay a little longer, maybe our love will grow stronger
I want you I hate you, I need to… to leave you
I got to get a breath of fresh air
You lit my heart on fire and you don’t even care
The flames are blinding my vision
This smoke suffocates my soul
You’re pulling me in every way
You’re tearing me apart
I really want you to go
But I think you should stay
I know I sound crazy who made the rules to how you play
The word games you say
Blame me for everything
I know im not the same
I’ve changed more then my name
But if you stay I’ll love you
I’ll hold you until you leave
Because of you I’ll always wear my heart on my sleeve
When did this begin and when will this end
The pain I cause myself
I can’t blame no one but myself
You don’t even like me
Lately we fight over everything
Passionate lovers is what I’d like to believe
Bickering and quarrelling I don’t like it stop please.
But if you stay I’ll be here until the end
My friends can think what they want but you…I’ll always defend.
We can play pretend
Like you don’t care I still want you here
You start and stop my tears
Your relive me of my fears
I’ve known you for years
I know you have to care.
But if you stay you’ll hurt me
Its best you should leave
I know at first I’ll hate you for walking through that door
And not loving me anymore
But if you leave it will be the best thing you’ve ever done for me.

An old peom I wrote enjoy =)

I ASK ALLAH TO REMOVE AWAY FROM MY GRASP ALL THE EVIL THINGS, THE MISGUIDING CONIVING THINGS.
THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME ASTRAY FROM HIS PATH,
THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME DESERVING OF HIS WRATH.
O ALLAH HELP MY HEART STAY FIRM ON YOUR DEEN
REMOVE FROM MY SIGHT THE HARMFUL UNSEEN.
I PUT MY TRUST IN YOU, O ALLAH I AM WEAK
MAKE NEAR TO MY SOUL THE WORDS I NEED TO HEAR,
AND THE WORDS I NEED TO SPEAK.
ALLOW MY MIND TO BE AT PEACE, MAKE CLEAR THE EVIL OF THIS DUNYA
KEEP ME ON THE RELIGION OF THE SAHABAH MY PROPHET, HIS SUNNAH.
YOU HEAR ME AT NIGHT WHEN I CRY OPENLY IN PAIN FROM THIS FRUSTRATING LIFE
I DESIRE, I MOURN FOR SOMETHING BETTER,
NOTHING THIS DUNYA CAN OFFER.
I FEEL SO EMPTY, MAKE MY HEART A LITTLE SOFTER
JANNAH, PARADISE, FIRDOUS IT HAS MANY NAMES.
AM I DESERVING OF YOUR REWARD, OR YOUR PUNISHMENT?
HAS MY SOUL TURNED BLACK, O ALLAH HAVE MERCY ON ME.
WHEN I AM ASLEEP AT NIGHT I DREAM OF ITS FRANGRANCE
YET WHEN I OPEN MY EYES AND REALIZE HOW CLOSE I AM TO MY DEMISE ALL I CAN IMAGINE IS THE FIRE.
HAVE I CAUSED MYSELF TO BE OF THOSE WHO ARE DOOMED?
EVERY BREATH I TAKE THE SOUND OF MY BEEPING HEART,
AS THE BLOOD IS PUMPING THROUGH MY VEINS
THE ANGEL OF DEATH IS ALWAYS NEAR.
O HOW I GROAN IN FEAR!
HAVE I DONE ENOUGH GOOD DEEDS TO WIPE AWAY MY SINS,
MY TO MANY TO COUNT SINS, ASTAGHFIRULLAH.
HAVE I BUSIED MYSELF WITH WORSHIP, NO MY BODY HAS NO PAIN
MY BACK HASN’T BENT ENOUGH MY TOUNGE HASN’T SAID ENOUGH
O ALLAH HELP ME SHOW MY GRATITUDE
GUARD MY ANGER; LOCK AWAY THIS NO GOOD ATTITUDE.
WITHOUT YOUR GUIDANCE WHERE WOULD I BE?
I THANK YOU FOR THIS LIGHT YOU LEFT ON EARTH FOR ME
YOU HAVE ALLOWED ME TO SEE IT, NOW LET IT SHINE BRIGHT
I AM CONTENT WITH YOU AS MY LORD AND I DO NOT DESPAIR OF OUR MERCY AND I KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE JUST ONE, OFT FORGIVING AND MOST MERCIFUL.

~YOUR SERVANT AISHA, UMM MARYAM