Suicidal Thoughts

Suicidal thoughts, memories blurry and dark
Never fall apart, no ending no start
Suicidal thoughts while at home in the dark
Starting to fall apart no ending no start
Suicidal thoughts starting to fall apart
Heart is cold mind shattered in parts
Suicidal thoughts no ending no start
Life is worthless starting to fall apart
Suicidal thoughts when they thought I had a heart
Memories get blurry starting to fall apart
Worthless suicidal thoughts
Driven by fear, of anticipation the end is near
Why do I care, careless selfish that's what they say?
The blade gets closer pushing my fears away
Tears streaming down my face as my mind begin to race
Thinking of a clearer, brighter sunny day
I wish I knew a better way to end this despair
But the truth of reality will never be clear
The actuality certain no ending
Because there was no beginning.